Stepping Up In the World

Stepping Up In the World

Have you ever felt so small that it feels like no one can see you? You try to bring yourself up, but just can’t? Truth be told, I have too. This is the grim reality, unless you do something about it, you won’t reach anywhere? Just expecting things to happen for you won’t cut it. I’ve had my observations, and yes, I’ve seen a few people who never bother to actually do some things, yet they get something that I want, but that doesn’t stop me from trying to reach them, they’re just a few steps ahead, but I’m right behind them and I won’t stop until I reach and pass them.

Taking these steps is hard, and to be honest, I found it hard. Just a few years ago I was one of those people who stayed home, not caring about anything. I didn’t care about school events, leadership positions, challenges and such, all I thought was, I’m going to get a job where I get money once I’m done with school. I’m going to some college for 2 years, and done, I’m going back to my home country. However, I began exploring other options; I was reminded of my love for the theatre. A few years back when I was young at my old school, I was in love with acting, I was full of confidence. One day, I was in a school play, but in the middle of it, I was removed from the play, without any reasons. I was heartbroken, so I decided that I was done with acting. However, after a move to Qatar, I joined as one of the background characters in a school play, and remembering how much I loved performing in the theatre restored my passion in acting, although my skills were weary after a long pause from acting, nonetheless, it was a starting point for me. I slowly built up my confidence by joining more things such as Model UN, Choir, School Orchestra, and writing stories for the We Are Writers book for my school. Long story short, I’ve taken up more challenges to improve myself, and I can safely say all those times I’ve used to do these things we’re worth it. They’ve enhanced me furthermore, and it was my big step, but I’m not done yet. I’ve got a future ahead of me, lots of things I want to accomplish, but I couldn’t have done it without that first step, which was to relive the joy of performing once again. I think if everyone takes their first step, then they can make it anywhere, with hard work and confidence, anything is possible.

When Hello Means Goodbye

When Hello Means Goodbye

It’s always difficult to lose something you can’t replace, and accept the fact that it’s probably gone forever. It’s much like friends, they’re difficult to find and replace. One small fight could immediately lead to a big one, resulting to a tragic end, with no way out. You think everything would be fine, that it won’t affect you at all, and that you don’t even care you lost them, but will you think the same in 10 years time?

It’s true that friends come and go, and it’s also true that true friends are hard to find, but sometimes maybe change is good. It’s not so simple to move on from losing a friend; the guilt, the desperation for forgiveness, and most of all, the small seed of hatred growing inside you. Is it not enough to say “I’m sorry”? Sometimes you think to yourself ‘Maybe I’m the one to blame or maybe we’re the same, but either way it’s a shame that it had to be this way.’ You hate yourself for letting it pass by, but can’t do anything. The worst part is that no matter how much you tell yourself you’re wrong, it doesn’t make a difference, if the person whom you’ve hurt hasn’t forgiven you, the guilt and hatred continues to sprout inside you. Would you be better off just saying ‘Goodbye’? 

The Butterfly Effect

The Butterfly Effect

"I’ve always loved fairytales, and I’ve loved the concept of, um, some of the best parts of a lot of stories are the beginning." - _{DARREN CRISS}

There are lots out there who feel like they’re nothing, those who feel unhappy with themselves, but they just don’t know the whole concept of ‘Beauty’.

We always tend to feel small, act like we’re nothing, and it’s those little things that we tend to judge, making ourselves feel less important than we really are. There are those who make us feel that way, make us feel like we’re nothing, but should we really believe them?

It’s always hard to find courage, to stand up and make yourself feel big, because every time you try to, there’s always someone in your way to drag you down. I myself have felt this before, and in truth, I have let it take me down, but don’t let it do the same for you. There are so many things that life has to offer you, but you need to close some old doors, and begin opening new ones.

Someone always feels like the odd one out, and you can see it every day. That one person would sometimes be sitting alone, glancing over the people they want to talk to; like a caterpillar who is yet to become a butterfly, but is too afraid to. Maybe you still are, maybe you’ve been one, but what matters is that you should never feel small, never feel like you’re nothing, because without you, this world wouldn't be special. 

Start of Something

Start of Something

Hi there! My name is John, and I'm an actor, singer, and writer. I'm passionate about those things. This is a blog where I post my own thoughts, this place will be like my own little world, my own perception. I take Drama as one of my GCSE subjects, a singer for the Senior Choir, and a Writer for a Magazine in my school. I usually try different things, I do MUN, volunteering work at times, and the Duke of Edinburgh Awards. Life's all about taking risks right? It doesn't matter whether other's see it being wrong or right, it's what you think that matters, what you believe in, this world was made for you.